My impending visit to Canberra this weekend has gotten all my body image issues well and truly in the front of my mind.
All those common phrases are going through my mind. I'm sure you all know the ones, "I'm fat", "I'm ugly", "He's not going to like me", "He's going to be disgusted by me", etc, etc, etc. It doesn't help in the fact that I know I actually have put on weight since I last saw him. August and September seemed to be party central for me so I ate more than I normally would, and then the last 6 weeks or so I haven't been exercising as much as I normally do due to a combination of allergies, a cold and my back playing up worse than normal.
Ugh!
I know I don't have a hope in hell of trimming up before Friday (though that doesn't mean that I'm not going to try anyway), so I've set my goal to be mid-February instead. Two of my friends have their birthdays within a week of each other (February 21 and 28), and since next year they both turn 30, they have decided to have a week and a half long party on the Gold Coast. The weekend after that is Mardi Gras in Sydney. As a result I want to be looking my best for the week and a half on the beach and the weekend of the parade.
I think I can do it to, as I think I've managed to wrap my brain around things properly this time.
Anyway, for this weekend, flights are booked, hotel is booked and rental car is booked. I don't think I'll be spending the entire weekend in the hotel room (we need to pop out to eat at the very least), so are any of the Canberran people wanting to catch up over the weekend?
All those common phrases are going through my mind. I'm sure you all know the ones, "I'm fat", "I'm ugly", "He's not going to like me", "He's going to be disgusted by me", etc, etc, etc. It doesn't help in the fact that I know I actually have put on weight since I last saw him. August and September seemed to be party central for me so I ate more than I normally would, and then the last 6 weeks or so I haven't been exercising as much as I normally do due to a combination of allergies, a cold and my back playing up worse than normal.
Ugh!
I know I don't have a hope in hell of trimming up before Friday (though that doesn't mean that I'm not going to try anyway), so I've set my goal to be mid-February instead. Two of my friends have their birthdays within a week of each other (February 21 and 28), and since next year they both turn 30, they have decided to have a week and a half long party on the Gold Coast. The weekend after that is Mardi Gras in Sydney. As a result I want to be looking my best for the week and a half on the beach and the weekend of the parade.
I think I can do it to, as I think I've managed to wrap my brain around things properly this time.
Anyway, for this weekend, flights are booked, hotel is booked and rental car is booked. I don't think I'll be spending the entire weekend in the hotel room (we need to pop out to eat at the very least), so are any of the Canberran people wanting to catch up over the weekend?
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As for your other issue, it's something I relate to and struggle with terribly. Even in the face of evidence to the contrary I'll think things like, "well, there are so many other slender women with better bodies than me, that my partner's been with before, so why should he be interested in me? I'm fat and have squishy bits " Bah! And Grr! to thoughts like that. It's a tough thing to try and get over, but you're determined so you will.
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Check out from the hotel is 10:00, so that sounds like a very good idea. Give me the address and I'll add it to my calendar.
As for the other stuff, I know it's a load of guff, but that doesn't stop my brain from coming up with it anyway. It's so frustrating having to deal with it so often. As I said, it's worse this time because I know I have put on weight, which makes it so much harder to ignore.
Anyway, I think you've got very attractive squishy bits. :)
Ps - Important question: milk or dark chocolate?
Yeah, isn't it great how emotion flies in the face of logic? I doubt anyone would even notice you'd put on any weight at all unless you told them and tried to point to exactly where. Don't do that! :)
Thank you! :)
Oooh, tough question, but dark I think. :)
The food is fantastic and the company will be better.
Random, you're not too bad yourself, for a boy :-)
It took me a hell of a long time before I got any confidence in my own self. Makes things a hell of a lot easier in life in that you understand that you can, rather than think everything is you can't.
*hugs*
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Look after the Random and don't let him die fron happy. ;)
I'll try not to let him die of the happy (notice how I refrained from making any 'little death' jokes at all!)
Now, what have you done with the real Stephen, and how much will it cost to make it permanent? :)
Jenny, on the other hand... ;-p
Some people get those thoughts so bad it stops them even getting close to people. I'm glad you're not letting that happen to you. Have a great time in Canberra!
All the wonderful people down here who like me in spite of everything I do can take a hell of a lot of the credit.
*hugs*
Hi, hope you enjoyed the party last night, hope you come to Canberra more often.
Robbie (aka Stephanie's Dad...)