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I'm currently in a very depressed mood. It will pass, but for the moment I'm feeling very blah!

I know what's causing it. A number of things actually.

Firstly, I just came home from holiday's, so there's the inevitable let down afterwards. I usually only see the people down there once a year, so I always feel crappy afterwards since it will be about another year until I see them again. However, it may be slightly different this year, as a friend down in Melbourne is turning 21 in October and she has invited me and Stephen (paradigmshifty) down to the party. It may be possible, but we'll wait and see.

Second thing is the state of my health. Being on holidays I was expecting to be feeling physically like crap when I got back, what with 20 hour drive each way, strange hotel beds and being on my feet so much while I was there, but I got home feeling pretty good.

However, within a day of getting back, and getting back into my usual activities I felt like crap, with my back and neck out more than I am.

Which leads me to believe that a lot of the problem is the environment I am dealing with here. First problem is my car. Jeff is a lovely car, but too small for me (He's a Hyundai Excel, for those who don't know). 20 hours driving both ways wasn't a problem, once I got out of the automatic driving slouch I get into when I drive Jeff. Stephen's Rav4 had a lot more room, and as a result I could (and did) sit up straight, so no need to slouch like I have to with Jeff.

Second problem seems to be how I sleep. As far as I can tell my pillow's are too tall. While away I was using the standard cheap, thin, hotel pillow. As a result I could sleep on my back without being uncomfortable. However, now that I'm at home I'm using my own pillows (which are thicker) I seem to automatically roll to the side, which means that I tend to wake up in knots.

Third environmental issue seems to be my computer workstation here at work. I don't know what's wrong with it, but I have a feeling something is. Does anyone know how a computer/desk/etc should be arranged for best ergonomic layout?

Of those three things, new pillows can be bought, hopefully fixing that problem, and I can rearrange my desk at work, hopefully fixing that problem. The other problem, the car, won't be fixed until later this year, but I am intending to buy myself a new car hopefully by my birthday, but by Christmas at the latest.

Third of my depressants is the state of my finances. I just came back from holidays, so of course I am broke and will be for another couple of weeks at least. It happens, and it will pass, but it always tends to get me down for a while. I didn't get to save up as much money before the holiday this time, so I'm really broke at the moment.

Fourth is the bad situations of those I care about. Some of my friends are not in a good state, and that always hurts me, plus there's my parents.

Mum and Dad have not had a very good last couple of years. In 2002 Dad had a quintuple heart bypass (yes, that means 5). Last year Mum had her "mystery illness" which was later (much later) diagnosed as Giant Cell Arteritus which she's still recovering from. Plus the drought out there has not lifted, and as a result it looks like no one is going to buy the business off Mum before she retires, and the business will have to be closed, most likely end of this financial year (June 30). Then settlement on the retirement home is December 15th, so they'll want to have the house sold by then so they can move.

Things haven't been going well for them lately, so they are currently enjoying a nice holiday on the Gold Coast. Or at least they were enjoying things until last Friday when someone broke into their room and stole stuff.

Stolen was Mum's laptop, Mum's palm-top (which contained all of Mum's business and personal information), my brother's palm-top, and about $700 in cash.

While they are insured, it's still a big pain, especially with all the personal information Mum keeps on her Palm. Usually it would be password protected, but...

Mum, Dad and Glenn (my brother) have a rather large book collection between them. Mum and Dad will not reread books they've already read, so usually what happens is that Mum and Dad buy a book, they each read it, and then give it to Glenn for his collection. With all the books they have, they store all of the titles on a little database on the palm-tops. The day before the break in, Mum and Dad were at a second hand book-store on the coast buying books, Mum with her Palm, Dad with Glenn's. Since they were there for a couple of hours (they take their book-buying seriously) Mum took the password off hers, so she wouldn't have to enter it every time she turned the machine on, and of course she hadn't gotten around to putting the password back on because they were intending to do more book buying.

This means that Mum has had to go and cancel all of her credit cards, and all the rest. Not fun while on holidays.

However, as they say, every cloud has a silver lining. The good news is that their insurance policy replaces the stolen items with a current equivalent. Since Mum's Palm was the top of the line when she bought, she'll be getting one of the top of the line one's to replace it, most likely a Palm Tungsten T3 (I am so jealous!). Glenn will probably get a Palm Zire 71 (with in built digital camera and MP3 playback). The laptop will most likely be a top of the line model as well, since it was when it was bought.

Oh well.

I'd like to apologise for this, but there are times when ranting about things helps, and I think it does in this case.

In good news, Mum and Dad are going up to the Sunshine Coast for a week starting on Saturday. Current plan is that I'm driving up there on Saturday, and I'm going to spend Saturday and Sunday with them, coming home on Monday (which is a public holiday).

I should be feeling better by then.

Other good news is that next weekend (1st and 2nd May) is the BIG Weekend, a roleplaying convention up here in Brisbane. Some of the Melbourne people (Richard Allan, and Brendan Roberts I think) are coming up for the weekend, so I'll be able to see them again.

*hugs* to everyone who read this far. Thanks.


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Apr. 20th, 2004 11:13 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Hope you will be ok soon. :)
Apr. 20th, 2004 11:23 pm (UTC)
Workstation ergonomics
From the intranet at work. There's a picture but it doesn't appear in comments.
They say it comes from the "Queensland Health, Safety & Environment" website but googling for that doesn't produce any hits.

Adjusting Your Workstation


Adjust the height of your chair so that your feet are flat on the floor, and that your thighs are horizontal (form a right angle at the knees). There should be no pressure on the underside of your thighs.


The backrest can be adjusted forwards or backwards to give appropriate back support.

The backrest height of the chair needs to be adjusted so that the curve of the back support fits comfortably in the curve of your back (about the waist).

Make sure the chair arms do not interfere with your posture or keying technique.


You should position your computer so that you can sit directly in front of it, and it is placed so that the screen is at about arm's length or a bit more.

The height of the top of the screen should be at eye-level or slightly below. (Operators that wear multifocal glasses may prefer the screen to be lower).

The mouse pad should be located close to the keyboard and at the same level.

Prevent Visual Fatigue

Remove or reduce any source of glare or reflections

Adjust the screen brightness and contrast so that it is comfortable to your eyes.

Regularly look away from the screen and off into the distance (at least 6 metres)

Apr. 20th, 2004 11:52 pm (UTC)
Re: Workstation ergonomics
Love your icon btw :) Bernard Rocks.
Apr. 27th, 2004 11:22 pm (UTC)
Re: Workstation ergonomics
I thought I'd wait until after my back was feeling better before dealing with this. One chiropractor appointment later...

Layout at my desk matches this, so it seems that any problems with work are with me, and not the ergonimics of the situation.


Thanks for the help.
Apr. 20th, 2004 11:49 pm (UTC)
"as a friend down in Melbourne is turning 21 in October and she has invited me and Stephen (nakedteddybears) down to the party."

Don't bet too much on Stephen being able to go, anticipate him being pretty tied up with the business 'n' associated stuff.
Things are pretty tight around here too & the business needs some attention.
Apr. 21st, 2004 12:32 am (UTC)
Apr. 21st, 2004 01:27 am (UTC)
Huggles to you, sweetie. I can relate to the pillow problem, as well as the lack of finances and depression.

I do hope that your parents have better luck on the next leg of their holiday, and that their health improves.

Now to get you back on track.....
Apr. 21st, 2004 02:21 am (UTC)
Ah, I know that Excel feeling. I had one myself for a number of years. I'm over 6'5" tall so it's OK for just commuting around the city, but for an extended trip it's a test of endurance....

Heh, just gotta love my Celica GT-Four now though :D
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